*I’m sorry if this post seems disjointed and incoherent, but I’m slightly angry and feeling the need to possibly rant a bit (a lot). Please hang with me**
When people first like to meet me they like to ask if I have a boyfriend. I tell them “no.” They then ask if I have a girlfriend. I tell them “No” and “I don’t swing that way.” … then the people just look at me like I’m crazy or something. Like there’s something wrong with me for being single. Like it’s a crime.
It drives me nuts that people seem there’s something wrong with me because I’m in my early twenties and SINGLE. Trust me, there are many worse things I could be than without a man at my side.
And to make things worse, I like to wear my hair up. So, whenever I fancy wearing my hair down people tend to notice. & I don’t wear my hair down to get noticed. I don’t think. I do it because I feel like it. Anyways. I wear my hair down and people tell me to “wear it down more often. it makes you look so pretty.” … what people don’t seem to understand is that I don’t enjoy having my hair in my face (although being able to hide my face behind it has it’s perks).
This is not helped by the fact that I rarely wear makeup. I don’t see the point. It’s a waste of money that makes me feel like I have a mask on my face. But that’s what it is, a mask. supposed to make women (and men) feel prettier when actually it makes me feel the opposite. So I just don’t deal with it.
& a few weeks ago my sister and I were talking about what we would say to a guy if we introduced ourselves. I ended up saying something about how I would go “my name is charity. I like books, netflix, and sarcasm.” … I probably should have tacked on the fact that I’m a nerd, but anyone who hangs around me long enough is going to find that out. I may be socially awkward but I do know how to talk if there’s a subject I like (look above. books. tv shows, sarcasm).
Let me be clear: there are many many things wrong with me. BUT and this is a huge BUT: there is NOTHING wrong with me because I’m single, because of how I choose to look, or because of my hobbies.